Isaiah 30: 20-21

As the weeks pass on Jon and I have been trying to decide and nail down our plans for the summer and next fall. With his job and school being in two different towns we had been weighing some options on where we needed to plant our new family. The first of many decisions I'm sure that caused a lot of stress and worry. 

I had been struggling on what the right thing to do was. I could see the pros and cons of both sides but a clear correct answer was not unveiled to me. I came to a breaking point. I felt as if this one decision was going to drastically change the course of my kid's life. I felt a huge weight on my chest that I wasn't deciding for just me and Jon now, but for a new human life. I could handle if I made the wrong decision for myself, but the thought of making the wrong choice for my kid sent me over the edge. I moped around and was frustrated for several days. One of the things I love about Jon is his trust. Trust that God's plan will still unfold despite our humanly choices, trust that things will work out for the good of the Lord. I'm more in the boat of believing all that, but asking the questions, "Ok Lord, what needs to happen, what do I need to do in order for this to go Your way?" Many times Jon's trust that I love so much I envy.

I was at his parent's house and bouncing my ideas off of his mom, Jerri. After just a few moments of talking with her I was reminded how blessed I am. Jerri is one of the rare saints on this Earth. We give her a hard time a lot of the times, call her Amish, but the truth of the matter is, she strives harder than anyone I know to be holy and blameless. She takes a lot of pokes for it, but I hope she knows she has the  highest regard of respect. She gently listened and a few weeks later printed me off a devotional she had found. It it was the following verse:

"...He is your teacher; he will not continue to hide from you, but you will see your teacher with your own eyes. If you go the wrong way- to the right or to the left- you will hear a voice saying, "This is the right way, you should go this way" Isaiah 30:20-21

I found comfort, a moment of peace reminding me He would not leave me dangling to figure out what the correct thing to do is. 

I only write about this because I'm sure a similar situation will arise in my life later down the road. I write this as a reminder to myself.